Sissies united

[Sissy]

I don't know phrases suitable for this in english, so I just Come up with something and hope you get my brain farts

[Suzi]

I love them! Please, please, please never change!

[Sissy]

Ohhhhh don't worry. I will stay as myself, everyone else are already taken.

[Suzi]

Epic! So true!

[Sissy]

I feel something is Off. I don't know what, but something is not quite right. I feel exhausted, and constant heaviness in my body. I have this really strange fatigue lingering in my head. I try to sleep. But I have nightmares, and going to bed is kind of scary. At least I saw my dad, syep mom and one of my sisters today. Last time was at fall. This corona is really making life... Strange.

[Suzi]

It is strange everywhere atm.

Have you tried meditation? Mindfulness?
Are the nightmares being triggered by something?
How was seeing your family?

[Sissy]

I miss them madly all the time, so I was happy to see them. I have nightmares alot, it has always been that way. It gets really tough when they are about People I love. If they are just random scary stuff, I kind of take them as my private horror movie session. But I often cry in my sleep, even scream. It scares the boys. And it scares me too. I dream alot of weird stuff, not long ago I had a dream where I was dressed up as the easter bunny, all pink and fluffy with ribbons and stuff. I was unhappy and anxious, but it was not that bad. But if I skeep trying to save my family from a burning house, sinking ship Or from bad People, I give hell to whole house with the skin crawling screaming. Nothing really helps. It has been like this all my life. I some times think this is normal, and all People are like this. And am shocked when I realise it is not the case. I am a horror freak, but this is not quite fun. Le Dude usually wakes up before I "start singing him the song of my people", and shakes me awake. Which is nice. He tells me I talk alot in my sleep, and says it is some times terrifying. I grabbed his arm once, and told him "what ever happen, don't wear my face". He did not sleep that night.

[Suzi]

I had nightmares like that when I took tramadol. They were horrific. It's now listed that I never want to be given it again - the kind of dream where you know that you are dreaming but you can't wake up.... Is it the same if you're given sleeping meds?

[Sissy]

Yes. I refuse most of the sleeping pills for this reason. But I also have nightmares even if I take none.

[Suzi]

Oh love... I hate nightmares, they always leave me unsettled the following day too...