Ive booked a telephone doctors appointment - itÂ’s later this month.
IÂ’ve tried different types of counselling, the last I had was told counselling doesnÂ’t work for everyone. Groups are a big no no, especially with men. Was told I need to learn to love myself - how can I do that in a group? I also tend to take other peoples problems home with me. As usual I always put my listening hat on and never get me sorted.
ItÂ’s like living as Jackel & Hyde, something I hide from doctor and donÂ’t tell how IÂ’m really feeling, Have told her about the hallucinations.
ThereÂ’s times when I lose my rag over very small things. Having evil thoughts about what I should have done to my ex sister when mum died. Karma caught up with her and she is now in a care home due to dementia.
I know I would be sectioned because of how I feel - if I knew which home she was in, IÂ’d go and do what she did to me when I was young.
Three times I ended up in hospital to have my stomach pumped (i
was under 5yrs old) and it was because my evil step sister gave me aspirins.
Thanks for that Paula. CBT doesnÂ’t work for me. Doctor wasnÂ’t happy that the last lot (specialised councelling) has told me that counselling does t work for some.
Too much trauma has happened in my life.
Thanks for your reply OldMike.