Hi and welcome. I get it, I really do. It’s over 4 years since my closest friend dropped me like a hot potato. I still don’t know why and I was absolutely devastated. But, over time, I’ve had to accept I’ll never know and move on. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt still - it does and I believe the people we love the most will always leave a hole. If she ever needed me, I know I’d be there to help her but I no longer need her in my life to be happy. It takes time, lovely. I know 2 years seems a long time but there’s no time limit on grief. Day by day it’ll hurt less and eventually you’ll realise you didn’t think about this today, and then for a couple of days.....