at suzy: I have good days and bad days when it comes to food. sometimes, I won't eat anything the whole day, sometimes I'll just stuff myself silly with so much food my stomach ends up hurting. I am getting up daily, but for what?. I don't really know (I am mid 30's)

at paula: I am constantly turned away by professionals. I think it's less about their ability to help people, and more about they just don't know what to try with me anymore. I've been on various medications since the age of 16, but again, it's like they don't know what they can give me that I've not all ready tried (this was even given to me in writing once).

it just seems my depression is.... what's it called. treatment- resistant

but I don't know. maybe while I'm here I can learn other coping methods.

or... maybe not. I really don't know

but I think it is a positive step in joining at least