Hi and welcome. Hunni you do not have to have him with you. There is help out there for anyone living with abuse. Sweetheart you can get out of this... Having him with you all the time is never going to allow you to deal with what has happened in the past. Have you heard of shout? Text shout to 85258 and they have added resources specifically for domestic violence including one which you can create an exit plan, but it won't look like that on your phone itms? I'm due to do a shift in the next couple of days, I'll see if I can find the links which might help.

I'm so glad you've found your way here, we aren't mh professionals, but we are a peer to peer support group and we'll always do what we can. Have you tried the Calm Harm app?