Hi Bellat,
I hope you get through all this and wish you all the best!
I can hardly imagine what you're going through right now. From my perspective, it looks like you need someone close that helps pulling you out of the mud and away from your abusive partner. So you might want to find out a close friend whom you trust the most and reach out to that person, if you haven't already done that. But then again, I don't know the full story, thus you have to decide for yourself whether that's the best thing to do or not.

Besides that, I always found it helpful to just keep your mind busy with something else, be it reading, cooking, or watching tons of movies and series, whatever keeps you distracted is fine, I'd say.
Would you like to share your usual coping strategies? Maybe I can give you some good input.

Also i think this is a great place to find some shelter in dark times (although I'm new here too, the first impression hardly could have been any better ^, so registering here sure was a great idea!