Hi @all and thanks for the warm welcome, very much appreciated! :D

Quote Originally Posted by Suzi View Post
Hi Tom and welcome to DWD. Are you eating properly? Drinking properly? Getting any exercise? Have you seen a Dr about how you are feeling? Sorry for the load of questions, but sometimes that's easier than seeing a blank reply box staring at you!
No worries, I'd rather have too many than too few questions!
As for the eating, drinking part and exercising part, I can definitely confirm that. I'm trying to finish my studies right now and the current semester isn't really overloaded and i've got a good amount of free time to spend. I usually do a good amount of cooking for myself. I'm also doing a lot of climbing and bouldering, one might say too much, but it keeps me busy and on tracks (and I have no problems with injuries and such, so I guess it's fine).
As for the part with medical help, I don't really think that I can benefit from that. I feel more like I just need to talk about certain things with people who genuinely want to listen to me.
After all, I'm not at immediate danger and do not intend to harm myself (or at least not anymore), if that is your concern.

Quote Originally Posted by Mira View Post
Hi Tom, nice to meet you.

Your post sounds like me when I was 27. That is a few years ago though

I would like to ask you a question. What you wrote sounds like the inside voice is telling you that (sorry no idea how to discribe it otherwise). But what if you try to look at it rational? Logical?

I will try and give a good example. This is what I do.

I get to work and I say good morning to my coworker and have a conversation. He seems cross. And talks to me while irritated.

In comes Mira. I get chills. I start to sweat even. What did I do? Was it something I did yesterday? Did I forget to do something?
He must think bad about me. He hates me.
And on and on.

But when I am home later I try to think Logical.

We parted the day before on good terms so to speak. So maybe he had a fight at home. A flat Tire. Bills. Etc etc.

What I am trying to say is I think way to much and direct it all towards myself. And thats not bad. But I do need to look at it the right way.

I hope this makes sense.
I think I understand what you describe. But I'd say it's a little different with me, as I'm much more on the logical and rational thinking side. I don't really think that others think bad of me. It's more that it's mostly me who's reaching out, like for making plans or just to check how they're doing. But I often get little feedback and that's where I start thinking and doing the math.
For example, if I write 10 people, what are the odds that nobody really cares to write back or just brushes me off? Then I sometimes start thinking (not always, but sometimes though). And that's probably also why I sometimes have difficulties opening up to new people when they don't really show too much interst at first.