Hi Tom, nice to meet you.

Your post sounds like me when I was 27. That is a few years ago though

I would like to ask you a question. What you wrote sounds like the inside voice is telling you that (sorry no idea how to discribe it otherwise). But what if you try to look at it rational? Logical?

I will try and give a good example. This is what I do.

I get to work and I say good morning to my coworker and have a conversation. He seems cross. And talks to me while irritated.

In comes Mira. I get chills. I start to sweat even. What did I do? Was it something I did yesterday? Did I forget to do something?
He must think bad about me. He hates me.
And on and on.

But when I am home later I try to think Logical.

We parted the day before on good terms so to speak. So maybe he had a fight at home. A flat Tire. Bills. Etc etc.

What I am trying to say is I think way to much and direct it all towards myself. And thats not bad. But I do need to look at it the right way.

I hope this makes sense.