Hunni, there are literally hundreds of medication/combinations/therapies which do generally help people, so there is always a point of going and talking to your Dr. Things change and new techniques are there to help and are being developed all the time. Don't rule it out.

Although foreign travel isn't an option, are there parts of your this country you haven't seen yet? You could still travel, just not as far itms?
I assume you've tried things like meetup.com? Just to meet new people etc?

You mention how you wish that you wouldn't wake up etc are you thinking of taking your own life?

As you've mentioned how you wish you wouldn't wake up I've added the SU trigger warning - it's nothing bad, just to alert other members who may be triggered by discussions involving this topic. Suzi x