So, you’re 18 then? Are you still living with your grandparents?

Hunni, I think it’s really important that you go and talk to your doctor about all this. If it’s tough to say how you feel, you can print out your posts here to show them. I also think you should ask about specialist support eg counselling. You deserve to get help, you deserve to feel better

Just a note, I’ve merged your two most recent posts as they were posted very close together. Please try not to double post