I need someone to talk to. *SU trigger*

[Suzi]

Hi and welcome to DWD.
You've reached out for support and that's great and shows me that you still have a glimmer of hope - which is great.
Suicide is never the answer, and is definitely not something that you will get support for here or discussions of "the easiest way" or "the best way" because that goes against everything that I believe. I know that things won't always be like this for you and I know that there are plenty of other options.

If you are hoping for us to tell you to take your own life and discuss methods of doing so, I'm sorry but this isn't the place for you. However, should you choose to get help and to work through this then we'll be here supporting you all the way.

[Khalil]

Hi and welcome to DWD.
You've reached out for support and that's great and shows me that you still have a glimmer of hope - which is great.
Suicide is never the answer, and is definitely not something that you will get support for here or discussions of "the easiest way" or "the best way" because that goes against everything that I believe. I know that things won't always be like this for you and I know that there are plenty of other options.

If you are hoping for us to tell you to take your own life and discuss methods of doing so, I'm sorry but this isn't the place for you. However, should you choose to get help and to work through this then we'll be here supporting you all the way.

One of the things that I hate to hear is suicide is never the solution and just be patient or whatever. That's what everyone says everytime I go to ask them for help and btw I didn't ask for a way to commit suicide. I said that I even looked for ways which means that I'm thinking about doing it. I only asked for help not for ways to suicide.

[Paula]

I only asked for help not for ways to suicide.

Then we’ll be so happy to help. DWD really is such a supportive community of people that ‘get it’ and I hope you feel able to become part of that community. The thing is, we say suicide is never the solution and things will get better because it’s true. And it’s something that many of us here (including me) can talk about from experience. During my worst crisis my psychiatrist told me that there is ALWAYS a way through. It didn’t happen overnight and was a very hard journey, and I didn’t believe him at first, but he was right. If I’d have gone through with my thoughts and urges, I would have destroyed my family, who I love so very much, and I would have missed so much joy.

Hunni, it concerns me when you say you can’t access a doctor. Can I ask why? Is it because of where you live? Can I ask how old you are?

[Khalil]

Then we’ll be so happy to help. DWD really is such a supportive community of people that ‘get it’ and I hope you feel able to become part of that community. The thing is, we say suicide is never the solution and things will get better because it’s true. And it’s something that many of us here (including me) can talk about from experience. During my worst crisis my psychiatrist told me that there is ALWAYS a way through. It didn’t happen overnight and was a very hard journey, and I didn’t believe him at first, but he was right. If I’d have gone through with my thoughts and urges, I would have destroyed my family, who I love so very much, and I would have missed so much joy.

Hunni, it concerns me when you say you can’t access a doctor. Can I ask why? Is it because of where you live? Can I ask how old you are?

I'm 17. It's not really because of where I live but it's because of how my family thinks. They have this idea that if you visit a psychologist, you are either insane or just acting like a baby. And even if they take it seriously. Someone of them will take me for a walk and say bunch of words your father is sick etc... you know those long useless speeches and at the end you'll be told be patient. All I'm trying to fight and remove is that feeling when you don't manage to get someone you love you think your head will explode.