Things like, what if he hurts me, what if I hurt him, what if thoughts. Sometimes I think I would feel better alone, but then I remember he is my bestfriend and my soulmate. Also, I cant be the best version of myself because of the pain I feel most of the time. I would be better without jealousy, sadness and all of that depression bringed to me. I talked to him, he understands, but everyone has their point where person can decide, ok, it is enough, I will find other girlfriend, happy and not anxious and girl who will behave as regular girlfriend in mid 20s. I talked about all my thoughts and he said he could not ever leave me. But I dont know why that statement isn’t enough for me