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[Angie]

Hi and welcome

[Fuego853]

I'm sorry, I can edit it maybe? ��
Yes, right now, I'm home on holidays, but I'm going to my therapist when I go back to another city.
Actually, I'm really against any medication because I have another opinions about pharmacy and whole industry based on money. Aand, I don't have good support group so that's why I came here :D When I suffered from depression in elementary school, I started reading a lot of alternative books about spirituality, God, universe, power of selfhealing, power of thoughts and that saved me from really bad depression. Now, I guess I spend resource of selfhelp books and I'm confused so I think I just need similiar people around me. I have a boyfriend and he understands me because he also was depressed because he had IBD and depression came because od the illness. But he is good now, all depression gone. So I guess he's only one who understands me. But I think I bother him with my sadness. Maybe you all know how parents can be, they think I just want to play victim blah blah. Just ask if you have any question, I'm new here and don't know all the rules.

[Paula]

Hi, Paula, and welcome. Can I ask what you mean by ‘how parents can be’? I have 2 daughters and the eldest is 22 - I would never think either of them would just want to play victim. My youngest has struggled in the past and all I felt for her was sadness that she has struggled, empathy for her pain and hope that we could work through it as a family.

WRT medication, I can understand what you mean about the industry but I firmly believe your (and anyone’s) focus should be on using all the tools available to get well. For mild to moderate depression, research is showing that medication may not be the best route for most, but for more severe depression (and I would think suicidal thoughts comes in that category), anti depressants are usually effective. I know you’ve seen a psychologist, but have you talked to a doctor who is able to prescribe medication about your options?

[Fuego853]

I’m from part of the Europe where people are not so open minded. That’s what I thought about how parents can be. Also, I have bad family situation so focus was never on me but on their problems. I was always someone who needs to be quiet and my problems were the smallest ones and also the not important ones as theirs. I went to one lecture when guy (25 years) talked about his depression and he also said that his parents don’t understand him at all. I love my parents and I know that out there are parents who support their kids at maximum. That is so important and beautiful!

Thank you for your advice about medication, I will keep it in mind. I didn’t talk to doctor who prescribes those antidepressants but I think about it last few weeks and I guess that would be good idea.