Loneliness really is a killer. It doesn't matter what age you are. My kids have lives of their own, one is at University , the other is always out. when I close my door at night I am left with a total feeling of despair, loneliness and hopelessness. It is so sad to think my house was once filled with childrens laughter. It took me years to get out of an abusive marriage and thankfully my kids are well balanced young men( always kids to me )But here I am just at rock bottom with tears streaming down my face. It all gets so over whelming. I can hardly breath from the hurt of emotional pain .

People say I need to get out more ,I have tried but I am only really papering over the cracks . I am so empty. I just needed to write this as I have no one to say it to and no one to listen.