Thank you so much. My problems are way too complicated and eventhough I tried so hard I just couldnt fit it under 5000words.
Yea eventhough my experiences with doctors were not that Great I gave it one more shot. Doctor told me to just say how I feel what I am ( gay and stuff ) and that it will make me feel better... weeeelll you guessed it: it didnt. Like whatsoever. It only got worse because friends accused me of not being gay of just craving for an attention. they think of me that I want them to pity me or something. So I gave up on doctors and stuff