Sorry for saying I was depression was an inconvenience and no one is interested. That's just how I feel sometimes and yesterday was pretty bad. I'm better today. Had a good chat with my partner and things are sorted out. Only issue is I agreed to go for counselling and I've mentioned my reservations about that. I haven't seen my doctor, I know what they will do and sometimes I think that won't be a bad option. Yes it has been 20 years since I've been on antidepressants. Support network wise, I only really have my partner, maybe a couple of mates, but I find it hard to open up as I feel people aren't interested.