Thanks everyone
The hardest thing about having depression is accepting it and trying to understand it is nothing to be ashamed of. I have accepted the fact i will.have on/off bouts of depression throughout my life.
I have to come terms with the fact I am not normal enough or weird enough I am just Andrea.
I am just job hunting and trying to deal with post uni life.
I am not enjoying life as a graduate .
My friends all.got lives and every everything going for them. I have nothing going for me .
My closet friend is going to Spain to work as an au pair , my other friends work or doing a masters degree.
Recently I was diagnosed with severe anaemia. I am on iron tablets . The drs did not bring up my depression during a gp appointment so i was relieved. I was worrying for nothing .