Hello All.

I am new and have recently been going through a tough time. I think it all started with gambling. Myself and my partner became regular gamblers and started to lose alot of money. We had found gambling so comforting that we ended up taking personal loans just to have enough money to gamble. Cutting long story short we are at the point were we are struggling to pay our finances and I feel I'm to blame coz I am currently unemployed.
My relationship is also on the rocks coz all we ever talk about is where do we get money to pay for our debts every month end. And its putting pressure on me coz I try for jobs but nothing comes through
I tend to cry all the time and theres like a switch in my head that keeps on changing my moods from normal to negative thoughts
I often think of how convenient it would be to just end it all coz I am 36 years old , unemployed, no savings , have a partner who is more stressed about finances. I feel like a burden at times.
I dont know what to do