Hi and welcome.. Stupid question - but why keep that deadline? Why not just forget it and move forward to do something that you might actually enjoy? There are so many other things for you to try.... What about travel? What about just having fun? What about seeing bands/concerts/plays/shows etc? What about friends? Family? Do they know about this deadline?

Why let something you decided at 15 rule your life? I know I was a very different person at 15 than I am today....