Thank you for your replies. I did speak to my GP once last year when speaking about a health issue which is not really being addressed (just told to lose weight and take pain killers) He just told me to look on line at the local health website for support.
I've tried talking to my boyfriend, he just doesn't get it. He's not a 'modern man' who talks about feelings etc. He struggled when my mum died 5 years ago.
Life just feels so tough at the moment. Its a struggle to get everything done that needs to be done let alone things I want to do.
All my life, nothing has ever been about me, I struggle so much when the BF asks me what I want to do on a rare child free night. Everything I do is always for the kids or BF (he does get annoyed with me for doing this) but then i feel resentment for nothing being about me. I really dont make it easy for myself