Hi Hunni and welcome. Firstly, you’re doing amazingly! You’re being a mummy while working full time - been there, done that and it’s a lot harder than anyone thinks. Just getting through each day is tough.

Jaq’s right, you need to see your doctor. You’ve made a big step coming here and admitting how you feel, Next one is telling your doctor and, if you haven’t already, your boyfriend. You can do this, I promise, but you need to have the tools to do that (support, medication, therapy).