All I see is someone who is selfish and unloving, takes people for granted, attention-seeking, unable to cope with life, willing to break my family's hearts and lives apart because I can't love them enough to want to stay with them. I resent the hold they have on my life and the fact they need me so much. There are people fighting in this world to beat any amount of conditions to stay alive and I want to throw it all away. I don't deserve to have people around me fighting for me when I just want to throw it back in their faces and give up. I am lazy and don't look after my family properly. I used to cook, bake clean and now it's all I can motivate myself to do to do the basics That's only scratching the surface. I can't see anything lovable in that.
And so today's battle has begun. I'm up, dressed, coffee and banana on board.
Taking the dog to the beach for a trek and get the Sun on my face.
Will go for a swim later as I need to go to town for some yarn.
I have some cooking apples so plan is a crumble.... if I can get the motivation going to peel the apples. hubby is playing golf today and my younger 2 are at home so getting out on my own will give me some space.
Hope everyone is ok and looking after yourselves.