Hi Jaquaia,
Yes I have had some stints of counselling, but not til I was in my 30s, definitely wish I'd sought bereavement counselling at the time.

I do need to speak to my doctor, was on ADs again last year but stopped when they asked me to go in for a follow-up - appointments are like gold dust and when finding the motivation to brush my teeth is a struggle the rigmarole of getting an appointment feels too much!! I've also self-referred to IAPT a couple of times but the first time I didn't get anything through after my assessment, and the second time I lost my letter :-S
I guess I'm hoping that getting involved in a community might help keep me more accountable for doing these important little things that feel hard to do when you don't have your own back, if that makes sense?!

Thanks for the warm welcome, it really means a lot :-)