New here - struggling with negative thoughts

[Mira]

Hi,

Nice to meet you. All the things that have been said are great points. We never compare. Its not a competition. I see it more as we are in this together.

I am in no way able to give you a diagnosis. But everything you wrote hits home for me. I have it almost 100% the same. Minus the girlfriend

So you are in no way alone in this. There are others going through the same. I have that guilty feeling too. But as you wrote you are fighting back the tears. There should not be guilt involved. Selfcare and love should be there. I know easier said then done.

But try to think of yourself as ok. You manage to work. If you were lazy you would sit at home. Your girlfriend sounds wonderful. And has good taste thats why you are together. You wrote she supports you and is there for you in every way. Give her the chance to keep doing that. If you shut off and dont burden her she will feel that and that might make things worse.

I am writing to many things to fast. Sorry for that.

It is nice to meet you and welcome here.