I'm sorry I just feel very irrational, muddled and scared to be honest. Nothing is concrete in my head anymore and I'm just unable to move from my sofa which sucks too. I just cannot understand why I constantly keep getting screwed over by either my stupid decisions or the type of woman I go for, i seriously do not get it. I'm so low I can't see the top of the climb, and I've got no emotional energy to get back there