Thank you all for your support. I often really do feel that there is no point in going on. I do realise that so many other suffer depression in the same way (ridiculous, we all suffer depression in a slightly different way I think) but as I get old I am finding it more difficult. My dear husband is trying so hard but he isn't the love of my life and it was his drinking that made me leave. He doesn't seem quite to realise the damage he caused. Ah well, dear friends, I'm sure I'll survive.