Depression, loneliness & excessive worry*SH Trigs*

[SA89]

Well I attended my 3rd meetup last night with about 15 people for a night out. I was dancing my back off all night on the dancefloor & even put the more reserved people in the group to shame with my confidence!. The group organiser even said she's surprised how I've come out of my shell as I was quiet on the last 2 meetups. She's really lovely & even bought me a sambooka . We got on well & she hugged me before the group departed after 2am. I'd love to have someone in my life like that. She's so lovely and has an amazing zest for life.

I'm glad I stuck with the group as I now feel a sense of belonging after last night. I surprise a lot of people on a night out with my confidence which is in stark contrast to how I am at home . I had 5 half lagers, 1 half cider & a sambooka. I felt really depressed later on but without that dutch courage I would never have had such an amazing night on the dancefloor. I finished the night on a low with my cousin who is a dick head. He doesn't stfu about how no one messes with him & belittled how slim I am. I loved my night with the group & its typical of that arse hole to bring me down .

[Paula]

Well done for letting yourself enjoy the night but that amount of alcohol is going to affect your depression. I hope that you’ll be able to see that it was you, not the alcohol, that gave you that courage

[SA89]

It's great you had a good time. But again that's a fair amount of alcohol..... Why hang around with your cousin if you don't like how he is?

I've not been out with him in ages & it reminded me why!. It's funny how people change over time. This guy was once my drinkin partner & now he's gained more confidence he's become arrogant & intimidating.

He lies as well like braggin how he has sex with women in clubs. He now hangs with my obnoxious brother. I don't feel free at all around these people. It felt liberating in the meetup group because they're people who don't bring me down & are really inspiring in what they do .

Well done for letting yourself enjoy the night but that amount of alcohol is going to affect your depression. I hope that you’ll be able to see that it was you, not the alcohol, that gave you that courage

ye I didn't drink for about a year prior to 2 week ago. On a bank holiday though its not easy to resist on a night out. I only drink until I'm merry to help my confidence & I love a dance lol .

I could have gone out today with my mum but I stayed in. I feel like I've made some kind of breakthrough in socialisin of late but I need to sustain it. When you've tasted positive interaction you want more of it. I just need a regular routine in between these meetups. Everyday I'm applyin for jobs & voluntary ..