Depression, loneliness & excessive worry*SH Trigs*

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Really don't feel comfortable at the moment, my evil brother has invited his friends into the kitchen to smoke weed & get drunk. When my mum's out he takes advantage. I've not even made my tea because I'm scared to be around him & his friends. My depression is more of an issue than my anxiety but this really makes me anxious. I keep applying for a council flat but there's like 40 applicants for each listing. I'm really desperate because I feel really intimidated by him especially when he's had a drink which I've touched on before . Even the samaritan I spoke to said that living with someone as volatile as this is bound to have an effect. Imagine living with someone that has a "gang-like mentality" when you have low confidence & mental health issues.

I won't rule out the meds but there has to be a reason why my GP only prescribes the 4 main SSRI's. He said the others are considered less safe. I took the SSRI's for months at a consistent time. With counselling I learned a lot but struggled to act on it. I'll look into the recovery classes. My home environment is a source of my low self esteem because of the brother I live with. Even the samaritan said it's understandable that I'm insecure living with him. Outside of my house I feel free because I'm not in his presence. No one makes me retreat to my shell quite like he does. If I ever called him out for his behavior I'd be threatened. He gets away with it because he helps my mum with the shopping & around the house which is more than I do tbh. But least I'm respectful. I really wish my area was full of people like you guys not the types that are in my house right now ..