Hi and welcome. I understand why you feel you have to apologise - I’ve always had a safe, comfortable life yet have suffered from depression since I was 16 and, like you, felt I had no right to feel this way. Yet being a part of DWD, I have learnt, as Jaq says, that depression can affect anybody, sometimes for no discernible reason. It’s an illness and, like any other illness, can impact anyone.

Unfortunately, it’s a difficult illness to treat so I’m not surprised you’re not getting better after 2 years. It’s a chronic disease so takes time to get things settled. Sometimes trial and error with medication and other therapies will lead to successful treatment but sometimes it’s more about managing the illness. Just keep engaging with your doctor and keep fighting, its early days yet and you’re doing brilliantly