After this discussion with my dad, I am feeling very low not sure even if I want to see Paris, if I want to see my online man...

I want of course, but I have mental problems, I am affected by Cushings and I am not the smiling flirty girl. He is the opposite - very stable and strong emotionally, fit and very smiling/flirty. I remember the first time skyping with him- his smile seemed to brighten up my whole room and filling my heart with positivism (he is very optimist).

However, although our connection involves romantic feelings, he seems not to be sure about a very serious relationship and engagements. But he has never lied or promised something unreal about future together etc.