I know. When I am ok I do see things in a logical way. But thinking one thing while my feelings drag me into another direction is the problem.

Even now I feel the need to apologize. I get so scared that I offended somebody or said the wrong thing.

I did see I had an email adres of the American. So I sent him an email.

I did read it a few times before sending it. I tend to over explain things...

Maybe I am just no good at social things untill i get therapy.