Thanks all.

Most of the time I do know its not true Paula. But there have been times where people just told me that I was.

I feel there are two different versions of me. The one that does believe all, the kind things you all say to me. And that has a good feeling about it.

And there is the version that feels so insecure and thinks he is horrible. And does not deserve anything.

That version is around more. And sadly i can not change it on my own. They already told me that will require therapy.

So until then i guess it will stay this way.