Thanks, thats already a bit stressful. I do love history and old buildings. I saw one holiday where you could spend a few days in a gorgous house that used to belong to a lord.

I am worried that in the end i will try to plan a holiday and end up not going. That would be 3 years in a row now.

My mums not that well so i feel selfish if i go alone. So i would like to bring her along. But then i end up doing everything she would like because of my disorder. Wanting to please people. She is real caring and wants me to do what i would like but thats to hard for me.

When i do say that i will go alone she is ok with it. But then I stress about all the other things.

I feel like i am complaining again......