I’m not as stable as I thought. I went to Housegroup tonight and, at the end, someone mentioned SH (don’t ask why ....) and I crumpled. I hate this illness

It’s not helping that, on Friday, my best friends sister was told that, even though it was only last month she was in remission from leukaemia, she’s now relapsed. She’s in hospital having aggressive chemo (2 rounds of it) followed very quickly by stem cell treatment in the hopes she’ll stay in remission long enough to have the stem cell and that will keep her in remission. But, they’ve already told her that, if this doesn’t work, they don’t have anything else that’ll treat her. They’re all in bits ....