Hello, sweetheart. Please, please don’t feel guilty or ashamed of what happened. You’re ill and needed help, and you got that help. Not everyone could have managed that alone. As for not remembering, maybe that’s your brain protecting you from the horrible bits of the day. You’re safe and getting treatment and support now - that’s all that matters
Hunni, I’ve merged your three posts as they were posted within a short timeframe of each other.