Nothing makes me happy *SH triggers*

[Suzi]

I’m not sure what to say. I feel totally hopeless. I’m really struggling today. I’ve tried colouring, sudoku, listening to music, I’ve washed the dishes and done a bit of ironing. I’ve put the tv on and made a cup of tea but still can’t settle and have now starting scratching. The HTT are coming out between 3-6 so hopefully not much longer to wait.

I an so , so, so proud of you for posting here. I know you weren't sure about doing so. I am so proud.

Thanks Paula. Crying now. I’m no hero, though. Thinking about the kids isn’t even enough today. I always thought that with my past I would do nothing but put them first.

She's right, you are a hero. You are fighting and working as hard as you can to get better.