Me, part 673 *TRIGGERS*

[Suzi]

I agree with Paula, you can only concentrate heavily for a certain amount of time and I really don't want you to burn out lovely..

[Jaquaia]

I'm pacing more now. I only looked at the first section of the chapter, admittedly because I fell asleep... which is another sign that I'm starting to struggle.

I did some cross stitch yesterday, have done some reading today. I've even made an appointment with the optician next month. It's good that I rang and checked while I remembered as they still had me down for 2 yearly sight tests

[Suzi]

I'm glad you are pacing a bit more....

[Jaquaia]

I'm sensing a but...

[Suzi]

but, I wonder if you are pacing enough and being kind enough to yourself...

[Jaquaia]

Ha! I was right!!!

Probably not. I just feel lazy when I do nothing though.

[Paula]

You are very far from lazy, I promise you.

[Suzi]

You are very far from lazy!!!

[Jaquaia]

Give me strength!!! Mentioned that I've booked my eye test for next month to my mum and that they still had me down for 2 yearly eye tests. She wanted to know how come I got an appointment then and said that the doctor had told her that she needed yearly eye tests. Had to explain again that the GP was wrong and she should go with what her consultant told her. I explained that a GP has some training in all areas whereas a consultant focuses on one area. I even pulled up the NRAS website and went through the list which clearly says that only the DMARD I'm on needs yearly eye tests, "I'm only going on what the doctor said" FFS mother!!! It's not a competition!!! I pointed out that the first thing the registrar told me when starring me on hydroxychloroquine is that I would need yearly eye tests as it has the potential to affect my eyesight, and if her drug did the same they would have told her when they started her on it as they're the experts and know these things. I also pointed out that the list on the NRAS website was created by a Professor of Rheumatology and a specialist rheumatology nurse but still don't think she's convinced...

[Suzi]

I hate that, when other people try to make it into a competition about how much they hurt, or what their diagnoses are, or what/dose medication they are on.... Hope that you've managed to calm down - I'd have been so peed off!!