Me, part 673 *TRIGGERS*

[Jaquaia]

I'm overthinking the orchid, my dads birthday presents, the dinner, money, uni, driving, what people think about me, everything! It drives me crazy but I don't know how to stop it so I try and ignore it. Even overthinking the fact that I've put Stereophonics tickets on my credit card! But I absolutely love them, they rarely come to Hull, I'm allowed to treat myself and it will be easily paid off, which will help my credit rating.

My bag has arrived too and it's so pretty!!!

[Suzi]

What if she doesn't like it? The worst would be that you would feel bad, but honestly love everyone here sees that it's a beautiful orchid, she can't be that different to us all surely?

[Jaquaia]

I think she's lovely. I really like them both. And I must have checked with J about 20 times before I actually ordered it. I'm irritable as well and struggling to be around people so I think that maybe my anxiety is higher than I realised...

[OldMike]

Just catching up on your thread, that's a beautiful orchid, is it for J's mum? I'm sure she'll like it.

Basically it depends on what J's mum is like, hope she's not like my brother in laws mum (who died last year at the age of 94) whatever you did was never right, if you didn't go to see here it was "no one ever visits me" and if you went to see her it was "what are you doing here, I'm going out", same with presents nothing was ever right it wasn't a case of getting old she was like that all her life, her hubby used to turn his hearing aid off so he couldn't hear her constant moaning, no wonder he spent most of his time on his allotment.

One week she had a neighbour's key so she could water the plants in their kitchen, first thing she said on return was "You should see the rubbish under their bed", beggars belief doesn't it

Good for you treating yourself to see the Stereophonics.

[Jaquaia]

She's lovely. Both of his parents seem to have really taken to me. It's just me being me.

[Mira]

You being you is you being awesome. The overthinking is not doing you any favors. I know that all to well. But try to not stop it from you doing things.

[Suzi]

I'm not surprised that they have taken to you! You are lovely! But they will also have seen how much you love their son.....

[Paula]

But they will also have seen how much you love their son.....

I adore Katies boyfriend - he’s charming, kind, funny but the reason I adore him is because he patently adores my little girl and he looks after her. It’s pretty straight forward, really

[Jaquaia]

I always try and be myself

[Suzi]

I always try and be myself

So you should... You are amazing.