Me, part 673 *TRIGGERS*

[Paula]

Yet again, Ash proves why should not be with him. That is bullying, controlling behaviour and typical emotional abuse. Block him, please

[Jaquaia]

I'm just tired but just plodding through my uni work and listening to Cabin Pressure

[Jaquaia]

I hadn't thought of it in that respect before. I thought I would have picked up on it after dickhead

[Suzi]

Have you blocked him yet?

[Jaquaia]

I have.

[Suzi]

I'm really glad. You don't need that kind of bas*ard in your life love. You deserve to be happy and treated like a Princess...

[Jaquaia]

Sometimes I have to remind myself that what I have with J is real. Earlier for example, we were talking about the Holocaust as he was reading a book about the rail network in Nazi Germany (I know! Light reading for a sunday) and he was talking about how some railway workers asked to be transferred off the "resettlement" trains and he was saying the he couldn't understand why so many people let it happen so I told him about a study conducted just after the end of WW2 by Adorno et al. that looked at authoritarian personality and how those with an authoritarian personality had the potential for fascism if the political and social climates were right. I know that all sounds very academic, and I suppose it is, but it's the first time in so long where I can have a serious conversation and share my knowledge and intellect and not be shouted down as showing off or as my opinions are wrong and not important itms? With most others in my life, I tend to "dumb down" my vocabulary as it's easier than explaining what words mean or worrying that they'll think I'm a snob. He's the only person in my actual, physical, day to day life that I can fully be myself with

[Suzi]

I think that's pretty epic....

[Mira]

This is what its about. Being able to be yourself around someone. It does not even matter in what way or form. But being able to express yourself without having to adapt everything or change things is being with the one you should be with.

Its always easy to tell if someone is being a snob in how they express themselfs. And its always easy to make fun of people that use different words.

I hate that. But I know you are not like that at all.

I am losing my thoughts a little bit. Sorry about that.

Thing is nobody should treat people like they are wrong or worth less or more than anybody else.

There are times where i can learn more from the lovely lady that does the cleaning at work then from the manager.

Everybody is important. I love hearing words i dont know yet

Sorry this was a bit all over the place.

[Jaquaia]

I got dragged shopping on the plus side, I have new slippers and my dad bought me a pigs in blanket sandwich!