Me, part 673 *TRIGGERS*

[Suzi]

Wow! Awesome! Sounds like a lovely lunch!

[Jaquaia]

It really was and I didn't get irritated having spent the whole morning with my parents. It's the first time I haven't been irritable in a while.

[Suzi]

That's awesome!
Do you know what has changed to make it so much better?

[Jaquaia]

I don't know. Getting out of the house probably helped. Tired now, my mood always seems to drop when I'm tired. Being peoplely is exhausting

[Paula]

It’s absolutely not ridiculous to have something of Js at yours. Like you say, it’s tangible evidence that he’s in your life, properly

[Suzi]

I agree people are exhausting!

[Jaquaia]

Took J for lunch today and then made him rest. He couldn't really do anything else when I was snuggled into him with his arm trapped under me! He's absolutely exhausted but struggles with resting as he's been told that makes him lazy so often! He starts counselling next Tuesday and is staying over so I've suggested going for a proper lunch so we can just grab a sandwich for tea in case he doesn't feel like socialising. That way we won't have to sit with my parents if he can't cope with socialising. Hopefully that will start to make a difference but every part of me wants to make things better for him and I can't and I hate that.

[Paula]

Hunni, you already are making things better for him by being a part of his life

[Jaquaia]

I don't agree but then you probably could have guessed I wouldn't!!!

I get to choose my modules from tomorrow too and still overthinking that. Sometimes it would be nice if my head was quiet.

[Suzi]

Paula is so right. You are making his life so much better.