No idea. I'm generally awake until midnight anyway but usually asleep not long after. I don't think it helped that I went downstairs and ended up talking to my mum after I spoke to J and she started telling me that my former best friend is thinking of adopting another child but Scarlett won't play with her and she doesn't grasp that I don't care. She told me the other week that the other one is getting married but my sister can't afford the hen do. They stabbed me in the back, their actions led to me not having my sister in my life for 2 years, led to me being blamed for her miscarriage (it was my mum who told me that too by the way), I ended up having no escape from an abusive relationship because their actions made it easy for him to isolate me further. All my mum achieves when telling me about their lives is to remind me that I am alone. I have no friends here, the only person I have other then my family is J. My brother and sister barely bother with me. Not to mention, how can my mum not realise that it's incredibly hurtful when she's talking about someone adopting, someone who stabbed me in the back, or telling me about my sister wants another baby? And yes, I've made this all clear more than once.