I'm struggling with stopping and starting. I've talked it through with J and he's pointed out that my instructor is actually quite negative. I've been getting told for weeks that if I do A then I will fail my test and if I do B then I will fail my test and if I do C I will fail my test... you get the idea! I've only had 6 lessons!!! I try so hard to not do what she's told me will be a fail then I forget about other things. There is a main road, it's actually the main A road into the east of the city, that she wanted me to try today and after a few cock ups with stalling when setting off, I told her that I really didn't feel comfortable with doing that road. When I pulled up at home at the end of my lesson I got told that next lesson I have no choice, I'm doing that road whether I like it or not. I was in tears half way through my lesson, I was in tears at the end of my lesson. She knows a lot of my anxiety with stopping and starting is because I've had years of being sat in the back of my mums car listening to my dad getting aggressive and abusive towards other drivers who are slow or stalled, I'm convinced everyone is like that and knowing there are people behind me panics me more as I'm imagining them doing that, and she knows all this as I've explained it all to her. I spent almost an hour on the phone with J, mostly in tears, and I can feel myself getting upset about it now.
