I want to hug you. In my case it was my brother and his friend so I too get how you feel. I am more than happy to give you access to the private section to talk about it if you feel it would help.
I know you don't want to go, but I will be going to my brothers just so I know that he's dead and buried.... I know that sounds horrible, but I can't help it. I did tell my parents about 18 years ago and was told that my older sister had told them the same thing, but they could never cut him out as he was their first born.... I still have to see him at family functions... I did tell Marc. He has always been there to support me and doesn't leave my side if he's around. If you can't say the words to Le Dude, maybe show him your post? Talk to him lovely - let him support you... But also shout and scream and get everything out of your head. And know that we understand...
You are awesome. I know the courage it takes to write a post like that.
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