No I haven't got anyone nearby. I don't want anyone around me anyway tbh I prefer to talk online to people I don't know, probably sounds strange , I don't know if it's depression in general or the eating disorder but I push everyone away. I become quite nasty and bad tempered and hurt people and I can't stop myself. It always makes me feel much worse.
I don’t know if this makes sense but joining here and talking to strangers online eventually meant I learnt how to talk to those around me too
The purpose of life is not to be happy. It is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.