Thank you both for the replies. I am 45 . I don't have any support. From what I have read the support is key to getting better. But right now I don't want to. Anorexia is stronger than I am. I lost 2 stone in 3 months at the job but I kept messing up. I really can't be bothered any more when I know it always ends in disaster. Not received my p45 yet, they said I owe 2000 pound for training I had . I literally give up.