Hi and welcome. One thing my counsellor told me in one of my last sessions with her is that I couldn't be treated by primary care and secondary care at the same time so I'm currently under the psychiatric nurse prescriber, I wonder if it's a similar reason why they've taken you off the CBT list. They may want you to be more stable before they start you with therapy as it can be incredibly tough on a good day, never mind when you're in crisis.

You can get through this lovely, I know it doesn't feel like it at the moment, but there is a way through, it's just not always visible when you're in the middle of it