I slept a bit better. Phoned my health care team today as I was really struggling with my thoughts. They helped me divert for a while. Finding it hard on my own but I'm trying. I've overdosed so many times and it doesn't work. I seem to be indestructible. My brain is firing lots of different directions trying to think of other ways I could be successful. It's exhausting trying to stop it or get drawn down that direction