What's the point?

[Sissy]

Hey there, I am rather new forum user and we probably don't know each other at all yet. I don't want to nag about alcohol since others already mentioned it, I simply say I kinda see it lifts your selfesteem and pushes away feelings. But then that all comes back morning after.

I think you had a good idea in helping others in gardening, because every one needs that feeling their work - no matter what kind of work- is needed. Recover from your minor meeting with the ground and then do what you were planning to. Pretty much every one has done something not so smart while drunk, so let's say that was one of those things in life my guy (I refer to him as Le dude) calls "oh sh*t moments". Le dude is a heavy drinker and injures him self alot while drinking, so sadly I am abit too familiar with those injuries.

But hope your medication is changed to something that better helps you, and you get to do something that makes you feel joy again. To me it has been taking care of animals. When I was just diagnosed and no medication I had tried that far had helped me, I spent most of my time volunteerily working in local cat shelter. It made a difference. Not only to cats, but to the shelter staff and myself as well. That's where I got my crazy cat lady starter kit, and realised what was the thing in life I needed for my own happiness. So more than anything else right now I hope you find that sparkle for you. Let it be gardening, helping people, or anything that makes you feel good. And please let us try to support you. Not only because it hopefully helps you, but it helps us others as well.