Hi Rahella...welcome to DWD yes your English is excellent, as is Sissy's! I'm not surprised you're feeling the way you are. You've been through a lot for someone so young. You don't say what country you live in..but don't say if you'd rather keep it private. With your english language skills have you thought of looking for a job like a translator, or maybe in an airport as ground staff...we have quite a lot of Bosnian people in Somerset where I live and they have cafes etc and are doing well. Keep posting. Sometimes getting things off your chest and getting a bit of encouragement can help. Lovely to meet you.