Whoever is your cpn will have seen people in all kinds of situations. I promise you that this is not a punishment, it's not designed to be a problem for you, but to help you. You just have to let them in and talk to them. They aren't going around snooping, not judging, just trying to help. I know that if it wasn't for the first CPN my husband had things would have been so very different. Really, try not to judge them before you've even met them.